This is Steph's rocking chair. I don't care for the color so I decorated it with a few items. A little personality. She's asked me to use it a lot to help break it in, so I put it right in front of the bedroom TV.
I asked Steph last night if people ask if she's excited a lot. She said all the time. I get that question from everyone at work too. Well, only women ask that particular question. Makes me very curious to know how they'd react if I said "hell naw, it's just a baby. Happens every day. Ain't me givin birth". Of course I'm excited. It's not everyday that OUR baby comes. Anyway, the conversation with Steph was about how excited we each really were. I told her that I try not to think about it too much at this point, because it's getting so close that I'm making an effort to stay patient and calm, and go about work and stuff. I've always been a day dreamer, but work is going along at full throttle so staying engaged is discipline for me. Steph told me she is worried about the baby coming, because she's been thinking so much about all the responsibility and the fact that we'll be parents for the rest of our lives and all that. While all that stuff is true, I think they're the kind of thoughts that can psyche you out as a brand new parent. Maybe I'm just talking all big now, but I don't feel nervous. People don't do well when they're nervous. And the most reassuring thing I can think of to tell Steph is that she'll make a great mom and the kid is lucky to have her. I'll admit, my moments of getting really psyched happen when I'm on the long drive from work or doing some brainless chore alone for a while. But in the end, I really try to keep the focus on having a healthy boy. Welcoming him to the world and all that jazz. After that, it's nothing but hoping that things go according to plan. And everyone has their own stories about that. To those of you I haven't talked to in a while, I really miss you. Work seems to be the main theme in life right now, especially now that it gets dark out before 5:00. At least this baby will change the life theme. And as always, thank you all so much for supporting Steph.
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Oh my gosh Steph - you are ready to go lol. I miss you so much - I know you and Dan are going to be wonderful and loving parents. I can't wait to meet this little guy. Please let me know when the big day happens because I want to venture over to Westerly and see you guys. Hope to talk to you soon.
love Suzanne
It's looks like he's ready to come (you have dropped right?). And about the nervous part about being parents thing; I think that's the part that happens to everybody at about this same time in pregnancy. Let me tell you, those feelings will fade away quickly when you hold him for the first time, because at that point you don't have to time worry about being a good parent, you have to worry about how to be a parent period because you don't have any other choice now. But it's very very natural. For me with Kylie, I had those same feelings but didn't realize I was actually going to have a baby until they told me I was going in for a c-section and I'll have my baby in 5 minutes! That's when I freaked out about being a parent and wasn't sure if I was ready or I was even capable of being a good mom (even though I knew I would, those feelings still overwhelmed me). I guess I knew it was going to happen someday, but now we were talking in 5 minutes! I hope you dont mind all my stories and you've probably heard them all already but I love thinking back. And for you Marshall, it seems like to me, it is a lot easier for men to tune out the details because 1. they are working and 2. you don't have to feel all the little movements and actions your body is taking that your booked warned you about would happen when you are close. I love the chair decorations by the way! I wish I could live inside your house right now and watch and listen to all the last minute thoughts and feelings and changes going on. If that were a drug, I'd be an addict! I miss you guys too!
You're right Dan, those feelings are normal. I had them the minute I found out I was pregnant. First I thought, "Yay! I'm pregnant!" Then I thought, "Oh boy, there's no taking this back. No do-over. I wonder if I can handle this."
And let me tell you, Mary tested my ability to handle parenthood. There were definately days when I wondered if I'd make it through. But I did make it through, and so will you.
You're going to be a GREAT dad, Dan. I know you're nervous, but as soon as you're holding your son in your arms, all of those doubts will disappear and you'll be too excited to see what happens next in his amazing life to even remember you were ever nervous about anything.
Try to enjoy these final moments of excitement and anticipation. There's nothing like it!
Love you both.
Okay, so I just re-read the post and realized that it was Steph that was worried about the responsibilities, not you Dan.
Did you know that having a baby means you get very little sleep and often get confused? LOL.
So where I said "I know you're nervous Dan..." just substitute "Steph."
But I wasn't confused when I wrote that you're going to be a great Dad.
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