Thursday, January 06, 2011

Familiar times

Its been a while, a long while, but here we are. Quinn recovering from heart surgery, Steph sleeping, with Wes, and me with a laptop, pulling the nightshift at Quinns bedside. Right now he is sedated while we wait for swelling and bleeding to subside. Periodically, he wakes up and freaks out a little, and tries to cry with a breathing tube down his throat. This increases his blood pressure and he bleeds more. So for tonight, morphine and more morphine. When the bleeding and swelling come under control, he will be expected to wake up and panic about his predicament, while maintaining vital signs enough for the staff to remove him from the breathing machine. Waking up is going to be a pretty unpleasant experience for him.

Even though the setting is familiar, 4 yrs with this kid has changed everything. For one, he looks much bigger on these same hospital beds. But also, Steph and I don't look at him and wonder about what kind of kid he'll be or what good times will be like with him. The little boy he's become, I can't say enough about. More than I could have fathomed as a brand new father. Now we see a little man who we laugh with every day, and know how enriched he's made our day to day lives. A little man who is so much more aware of his surroundings, making his bravery all the more impressive. This whole process I must say, he has handled dutifully.

Steph is in another part of the hospital with little Wes, where she will try to get all the rest she can while keeping him fed. Wes is a good eater and sleeps a lot. A calm baby for the most part. Really helpful for Quinns hospital stay. But I give Steph a ton of credit for keeping her fear and anxiety about this surgery in check while nursing a newborn. I really really lucked out that she is a tough woman.


Momma and daddy Krug said...

You two are amazing parents and balance one another and the boys out very well. We love all of you and continue to think and pray for you guys (which is why it is 3:00am and I am checking for updates!!). Bruda, thank you for being so wonderful and appreciative of my seestor. Only you and the security you make her feel could help her keep her calm while taking care of one son, while the other just had such a surgery and is recovering. We hope Quinn wakes up with as little discomfort as possible.

Pop said...

Thanks for the update Dan. You put into words what the rest of us feel (about the little man he has become). Quinn is such a joy to all. I hope his pain is minimal and that the memory of this ordeal fades. He is a tough guy. His heart beating on its own. Its a joy that is hard to put into words. Love youand Steph and the boys.
Hang in there Quinn. You mean so much to all of us.
Pop and Kim

Tammara, Jess and Cory said...

Quinn look so helpless in the bed with all the apparatus out of his body. I can only imagine being the parent and seeing him go through this. He is a fighter and so are you and Steph. Quinn is a very brave young man. Prayers to you all.